.i did something very.. WRONG
♥ Saturday, October 24, 2009, 2:31 PM
i dunno why is it like this, but friends, aren't they supposed to help you?
and tell you why they're angry with you?
aren't they supposed to tell you your mistakes and ask you to change?
intead of being angry with you for no good reason at all, aren't they the ones who will stand by you no matter what?
yea, maybe my friends stood by me, comforted me when i'm sad, and i appreciate that, i really do. but why issit always, when you guys are angry, i'm duh one you keep shooting?
yes, i keep quiet abt it, doesn't mean i have no feelings.
yea, you're angry, i understand.
so i didn't follow you all anymore, and i told a girl that you guys were bitchy, my fault, i was wrong, i shouldn't have told her that.
but tht's how I feel isn't it?
maybe you guys dont feel it cause you're friends with each other.
i know, you guys are angry cause i said those words.
but i felt it was true.
or,
maybe, when i said those words, i was not thinking AT ALL.
i'm not so sure myself.
i asked you, "are you angry with me?"
you didn't even bother to answer my question. instead, you just totally ignored me.
even if you were angry, could you at least tell me why, and stop IGNORING me?
the feeling sucks you know?
and yea, maybe you do know.
i KNOW that you KNOW the feeling sucks.
cause i know you have gone through that.
but why did you do that to me?
the reason why i didn't follow you guys after that was because,
suddenly, i felt that you guys didn't want me in the group anymore.
and i felt that you were just being mean.
yea, maybe i'm lousy cause i cant tolerate this, but think, i have been tolerating you, shooting me, whenever you're not happy.
yea, you shoot someone else too.
probably even more than me.
yes, you can say i'm lousy, i admit i am.
but once you've cooled down, can you PLEASE consider, at least consider talking about this with me?
all three of you also.
thats all i have to say.
byebye.
